InsaneJournal

we had no time to say goodbye / how can the world just carry on?
So. There is a new ficlet up: There Is Always Consolation, Remus/Severus, Sirius. G. 881 words. Summary: Time soothes all sorrows, they say, and There is always consolation. Hopeful angst, I guess.



Today is the first anniversary of Safi's death - it marks the day my whole life changed, and I can't really say for the better. I lost - actively as well as passively - so much, there are days when I can't breathe because of that fucking ache in my chest, let alone sleep.

But today was okay. I spent it with one of the Most Important People In My Life, and we went to a café, then to the Mauerpark where I used to walk the dogs, then to the Tiergarten where we - P and I - used to walk the dogs, and where I haven't been since... just a couple of weeks after Safi's death. It was... painful, but I could remember without it being too painful, which is more than when I went through the Mauerpark on Friday.

Anyway. I have hope for the future, and I hope I can regain what I was stupid enough to push away from me.

I'll just have to gather enough courage to make the first step.