InsaneJournal

pass by if you're not feeling like reading about existential angst
Feeling low. Thinking about maybe getting my ass into therapy (again), but I know that (again) I won't actually get it up to do anything about it. Feeling too passive. Feeling bad about a lot of choices I made in recent times. Feeling unhappy about my writing of the past, oh, half million or so years, which, no good, 'cause it usually is my outlet.

It'll pass. It always does. I just hate feeling like I should just curl up in a corner and die, because no one cares anyway. I'm not suicidal; I just think I should have done something with my life up to this point, but I've failed, and I don't have the strength to do anything about it to change things. Floating and watching everything happen around me is easier - and for me takes away the point of being alive. But whatever. Yep, having depressed philosophical discussions inside my head.

Might appear not to be around as much for a while, depending on how I feel and whether fandom explodes in another round of wank anytime soon, which'll serve to keep me away further. You know how it goes.