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So, I'm all packed, and my mother seems to think I'm making a mistake of epic proportions by bringing my laptop to London. She does not seem to have realised the extent of my addiction. No matter. LAPPI IS COMING WITH ME.

And to celebrate my leaving, which does not mean I'm going to be silent: have fic!

Brightest Flames
Remus/Severus. R. ~2,750 words. Warnings include: *mental illness, questionable consent/abuse, they-didn't-die-AU*
Years after the war Severus is found wandering the woods, his mental faculties shaken. Remus takes him in.


I seem to be writing rather large amounts of Snupin lately, don't I? Seems like I'm becoming a true 'shipper with many, many guilty pleasures after all. Huh.

I guess I should try to squeeze in some more writing before I leave... The RPS Monster Fic That Wouldn't Die (aka the summer-fling!AU) is at 20K and counting, and I'm expecting it to clock in at around... 32K or so, which would be four times as long as my longest fic to date. OMG WAH. Deadline for the final draft? August 20. Which is a month away. *swallows*

So, I'm preparing my darkfic roundtable for the snupin_meeting, and I'm thinking about certain scenarios I'd love to see used in fic and/or to explore what I don't necessarily see as dark. What can I say, I'm a purist when it comes to this.

At any rate, do you want to know how many plotbunnies I've given myself? For really nicely dark Snupin? YES. TWO. For now. WTF. Muse, SHUT UP. DON'T WANT. I already have fic planned until early next year, and there's more than enough Snupin, too. In fact, I'm counting five Snupins in various stages of progress.

BAH.

*goes back to brainstorming/sorting notes*

A numbered list.

1. LONDON!!! The snupin_meeting! Lots of awesome people! July 21-27. Emails have gone out regarding this. If you were waiting for one.

2. SLEEP! I've spent like, a gazillion hours sleeping. And it's done wonders for my lack of optimism and enthusiasm. YAY PEOPLE! YAY GETTING UP! YAY DOING THINGS! When did I last feel like this, I ask you?

3. PAIN! My wrist hurts like a bitch. I guess writing roughly 24K in two weeks kind of overstressed it. Which doesn't mean I'm gonna stop writing, because...

4. DEADLINES! Lookit! *tears hair out*

5. FINANCES! They're all clear now for London, finally, OMFG. Caused much anxiety on this side.

6. PEOPLE! I LOVE PEOPLE! IF I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU SO IN RECENT TIME, I'M TELLING YOU NOW! ♥

7. TALK! There's been much sex talk going on at work, which, fun. Also, one of my colleagues has been talking to me about her committing adultery, and her affairs, and stuff. Which, weird, but also, inspiration. Heh.

8. lupin_snape's Fantasy Fest!!! CLAIMING IS NOW UNDERWAY. God, I fail for almost missing this important tidbit of information.

This post is brought to you by the letters S, H and M. I will now return you to your scheduled gloom seriousness.

My main concerns, the university applications with May 31 deadlines, are done.

Now I have to see about finishing off the ones that have a July 15 deadline. I want them done ASAP so I won't have to worry about them until August, when the admittance/rejection letters should start rolling in.

Anyway, this means I'm a little here, but not really. I'm reading here and there, but mostly I'm just bookmarking things to look them up later. I need a clear head for dealing with this RL stuff so that I can come back full-force when I'm done. Otherwise I'm just going to distract myself :D


ANYWAY. LONDON-BASED PEOPLE! I'm going to be in London from July 21 (Mon) until July 27 (Sun). Anyone who would like to get together? My schedule is sketchy at best - I know I won't have time from Tuesday evening until Thursday night, but otherwise I'd love to make room for a lunch date/having a beer with anyone willing! envinyatar15@yahoo.de if you want to, I don't know, talk about it or whatever. Or if you just want to talk, period. :D

SNUPIN MEETING IN LONDON IN JULY!

OMFG, my summer is saved. I've been despairing at the prospect of not having an HP get-together to look forward to and was seriously considering attending a Supernatural con instead, but now my plans have been turned around again. shiny_crystal, we need to talk whether you'd put up with Snupin people *g*

This also means I maybe should focus on getting some of my Snupin-centric ideas written. Half of them scare me to death, though, either because of subject matter or because of length.

In other words, I've written schmoop. Schmoopity schmoop schmoop of, yes, the RPS variety. Who knew I had it in me?

The Sky Beneath the Dawn
Jared/Jensen, NC-17, ~1,550 words.
It's always been like this between them: what they share is all-consuming, the world around them coming to a stop as it narrows down to nothing but them.

Y'know, in case anyone around here is interested.

And no, my current squee about Supernatural and related actors does not mean at all that I'm cutting back on HP activities - writing or reading. In fact, I have an ides_of_march fic to post this coming weekend, my challenge fic for erotic_elves is in the beta queue, and then there's some stuff on the side that's in various stages of progress. Oh, and of course I have a wizard_love fic and a remus_reads @ LJ fic to repost once the reveals have gone up.

Dear muse,

Love,

Me.

OMG. I want to attend Asylum con in Birmingham/UK. JARED WILL BE THERE. Seriously, can I be any more of a fangirl? *sigh* And that when I prided myself in never having had a serious celebrity crush. Damn it all. JARED, WHY ARE YOU SO MADE OF AWESOME?

Also, I apparently have sex dreams now. Two in twelve hours. I usually never have really really explicit ones in which I am taking part myself. WTF, subconscious. I already know what you're trying to tell me.

And this game cracks me up like whoa.

*needs to stay awake so she won't be assaulted by more sex dreams*

*long-suffering sigh* This week isn't better than last, is it?

Sectus got cancelled, which really really makes me very sad. I'm not going to Accio 2008 (too expensive; all I'd be able to pay is going to London like lasty year), so I was very much looking forward to summer 2009. I'd have met my dear zebraspots05 *pouts*

Aside from that I'm currently very much worrying about a friend of mine who really is like a little sister to me. She was with distant family for a week and was very unhappy there, lost a lot of weight. Now that she's back she is tired all the time and keeps fainting. Nobody knows whether it's something physical or depression or whatever. She's a very emotional sort of girl, but, unlike me, not prone to heavy depression. I called her this afternoon to check up on her and we wanted to meet up, but she just called me back to cancel. VERY VERY UNLIKE HER. *worries*

In writing news, my wizard_love fic finally is at the point where I can shout BREAK-THROUGH. I kept deleting and adding and rewriting this entire week, but I think now it'll be ready to finally get sent off to the beta tomorrow. *wipes brow* This writing process is rather unlike me, heh.

Supernatural has almost finished downloading. I just hope this episode will be better than last week's.

I actually thought I'd attend Accio 2008, but I just saw the rumours confirmed: IT'S EXPENSIVE. I don't have 300 pounds (=430€!) just for registration and lodgings. I mean, I have flights to pay for, and food and alcoholic beverages. And I don't think I only want to stay for the duration of the conference - after all I'm flying in from Germany, and I'd like to get to know the surroundings a little. I want it to be a holiday.

I'd poll, but I still don't have a paid account (shame on me!). So tell me: what are you, who are thinking about attending, going to do? I'm thinking maybe I'll just get a room and party with you lot :D Though shiny_crystal said she perhaps won't go, which means I'd have to find a roommate as well.

Thoughts?