the german pornstar

So I didn't actually update over the week.

snupin_meeting is over by now, and it was so much fun! I met amazing people, got dubbed both a puppy and a German pornstar, and just generally reveled and geeked out about the fact of having fandom people around me. And when I had alcohol in my blood, I actually talked. Amazing, isn't it!?

Yesterday I toured London a bit, or at least as much as I could manage with the cold I've been fighting since last week. Which still amounted to 3.5hrs of walking (from Victoria over Buckingham Palace, Westminster Abbey and Horse Guards to the Embankment), and then collapsing onto a sightseeing boat trip thing down the Thames from Westminster to Tower Bridge and back again.

Today I met up with melusinahp and kennahijja and... someone else in Oxford. W00t, I suck at getting names. Moar fun was had with lots of darkfic discussion thrown in. I didn't actually catch much of the town because of serious bouts of tiredness, so went home earlier than I wanted to. The fun fact? The London-Oxford coach I was taking actually had internet access on board \o/

Tomorrow it's lazing about and then it's back home already, with work (15 unbehaved kids!) waiting for me. So looking forward to that *eyeroll*

A numbered list.

1. LONDON!!! The snupin_meeting! Lots of awesome people! July 21-27. Emails have gone out regarding this. If you were waiting for one.

2. SLEEP! I've spent like, a gazillion hours sleeping. And it's done wonders for my lack of optimism and enthusiasm. YAY PEOPLE! YAY GETTING UP! YAY DOING THINGS! When did I last feel like this, I ask you?

3. PAIN! My wrist hurts like a bitch. I guess writing roughly 24K in two weeks kind of overstressed it. Which doesn't mean I'm gonna stop writing, because...

4. DEADLINES! Lookit! *tears hair out*

5. FINANCES! They're all clear now for London, finally, OMFG. Caused much anxiety on this side.

6. PEOPLE! I LOVE PEOPLE! IF I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU SO IN RECENT TIME, I'M TELLING YOU NOW! ♥

7. TALK! There's been much sex talk going on at work, which, fun. Also, one of my colleagues has been talking to me about her committing adultery, and her affairs, and stuff. Which, weird, but also, inspiration. Heh.

8. lupin_snape's Fantasy Fest!!! CLAIMING IS NOW UNDERWAY. God, I fail for almost missing this important tidbit of information.

This post is brought to you by the letters S, H and M. I will now return you to your scheduled gloom seriousness.

ETA:

I'm up for grabs at livelongnmarry. My offer is here.

hp_wankfest reveals are up! I can now reveal that I wrote:


His Own Sun
(here at the comm)
James/Sirius. R. ~3,300 words.
Instead of the knowledge of his innocence, there's the remembrance of a light that couldn't have existed in the depth beyond hell.
Prompt: Sirius Black in Azkaban with a Golden Snitch (beware of the canon character deaths warnings)


I am... floored by the response I got for this fic. Granted, I thought this might be one of my better efforts (actually, I put it into one category with Obey), but still. I almost didn't submit it for the fest because I was unsure it would fit in! And instead I get some personal recs (a first for me), and I get daily_snitch'd, which still has me wordless. Thank you guys so much for your wonderful words. I tell you, it has been difficult to not be able to squee to you all! ♥


ETA: I only just noticed I actually won an award for it - OMFG.

Fandom is the perfect pick-me-up place as of late. I love you guys ♥

Germany's Next Topmodel finished today, and I do not understand the decision like, at all. Jenny? Seriously? I voted Christina would win when only three girls were left, and when Christina had to go, I voted Janina (who had been my favourite, though I saw her failings). Grrr. Sadly, I cannot even find pics and/or video clips of the girls to show off what I mean! Frustrating.

Work is boring. So boring that I don't even know what to do anymore; the "homework kids" aren't coming because it's too hot and school therefore finishes early without giving them homework. And that when I'm someone whose head needs to have something to do. I want to be mentally challenged. Someone give me topics to discuss! Today, just to do something, I talked to this one woman about my social dysfunctionality even though I didn't really want to, but sometimes stopping is kinda difficult. I don't even like that woman - she's freaking naive. I feel a definite vibe of antipathy.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit my friend with anorexia in hospital. She's been there for three weeks now; her body can function again (her heart beat had slowed down!), but she's nowhere close to getting out of this. She takes anti-depression meds so she actually, y'know, eat without totally losing it. I don't know how long it'll take until she's stable; she wants to get better, which is very very good, but it's gonna be one hell of a long way. At least two more months of therapy in hospital, and then long-term therapy when she's home, that's what I've been told so far. However, that plan can change any day. I'm worried, though less worried than I used to be. At least she's in professional hands now.


I should probably do something now, but I can't look at another application right now. I'm too tired to write, too awake to go to sleep, too unmotivated to read. Meh. I think the reason for my being this way is the fact that my friends (the few that I have left, anyway) don't have time for me :( I think I need some time out with them. Can't have everything, I suppose...


At least the European Soccer Championships 2008 UEFA European Football Championship will start in a couple days! GO GERMANY! *waves flag*

Also? Today I walked my feet bloody. What the hell.

And tomorrow is gonna be another day of heat. Temperatures surrounding 30°C for the past what, ten days? It's awesome, though it prevents me from sleeping, er, restfully. Which means my moods aren't exactly... stable. Heh. More cynicism from my side - as if the world needed that!

I should probably really go do something now. Reading it is after all, I suppose. *sigh*

You know what?

What sayeth you about a posting frenzy: make art, not wank? :P

I have the distinct urge to remind people that there are other things to enjoy in fandom. Y'know, when those other people don't further the enjoyment of the fandom experience for whatever reason...

Today? Is my personal Fandom Annoys Me Day.

( possibly ranty )

What? I'm pessimist, you say? Naaah. Don't know where you're coming from.

I haven't had a good start into May, I'll have to say, but I can't and won't whine any more - it doesn't make the thoughts go away. Better to think of other things. I'm just going to have to deal.

SO! Positive things! I'm a-glee about:

a) my long weekend (how many times until you're sick of hearing it?) - of which I'll spend Saturday on a tournament, AGAIN. This weekend's wake-up time: 5AM. Whee >.<
b) my friends - in RL and online ♥
c) hp_wankfest starting. I have anon fic in it!
d) Supernatural tonight
e) a couple emails from today

*crosses fingers for tomorrow, WHICH I'LL SPEND AT HOME. Possibly in bed.*

WAH SUDDENLY FANDOM IS ALL ACTIVE AGAIN AND THERE ARE FESTS AND OMG I'M SO BEHIND ON EVERYTHING AND I AM. SO. NOT. MOTIVATED.

At least I have Thursday and Friday off from work, though I don't think any catching up is going to happen.

To-Do for May:
- hp_rarities pinch-hit
- Dark Side of Snape/Lupin fic(s) - one is written, two more bunnies run around in my brain
- j2_spn_100days fic #1
- miscellany that should have been finished ages ago: riding!Snupin, the threesome fic, the other Weasleycest fic
- beta!?
- write up beta request post
- write up list and organisation-like stuff for seekrit projekt

That should cover it for now. At least May is fairly quiet at work... :)

Evidently the snarry_games started yesterday. I guess I'll be able to keep up the first week, and after that... Well. I currently have 50 fic tabs open in my Firefox, only two of which are from the Games. *facepalm*

Still sick, though I'm more annoyed at my immune system than actually feeling sick. At least Peppo, my horse, was amazing today, and actually riding him (as bad a decision as it might have been for my cold) was the highlight of the weekend. YAY for the small things :/

April hasn't been a very good month for me, health-wise and consequently fic-wise. I've sent in my hp_wankfest and I did write my hpdesmutathon which will be sent in as soon as I have it back from my beta, but aside from that? I'm working on another erotic_elves fic which I don't know I'll finish in time to post it for the current challenge. I've lost momentum on the riding!Snupin AU when I got food-poisoned at the beginning of the month, and it's difficult to get back into it. I guess I need to revise the 6K I have so far to get back in the groove, but editing is the part of writing I hate the most, so, meh. I have a lot of half-finished fic lying around that is nudging at my brain, but nothing that really excites me right about now. I'll blame that on the pressure on my forehead.

I'm also trying to think about what I could write for the Dark Side of Snupin challenge that's going to be live on lupin_snape in May. I have a vague kind of plotbunny that would surely be fun, but... as I said before. I don't know. I think I'm hitting a writing low or something where I need to stay away for a couple weeks. Except I evidently can't! It's too much fun :/ I'd been thinking about doing pervy_werewolf's LMoM this year, but that will definitely not happen. Instead I'll lean back and watch y'all struggle with coming up with fics and artses for all 31 days of May :P

*contradicts self repeatedly*

/whiny post of whinedom

Posted my monthly fic round-up to LJ. Will now go on to doing 100quills-related work. Will refrain from signing up for hp_summersmut - pinch-hitting should be enough, no? Will answer comments and emails and such either later today or tomorrow. While not feeling like crap anymore I'm still pretty tired.

I haven't pointed to my erotic_elves fic yet, though, so here you go:

Torn Asunder
Padma/Voldemort. NC-17. ~2,600 words.
Padma Patil was not only a spy, she was the Dark Lord's whore as well.
There's a link somewhere in the header to the LJ post, if you'd rather read it there or something.


I should probably work on my hpdesmutathon assignment or finally finish up my hp_wankfest fic or, y'know, WHATEVER, but as I said before: TIRED.

Fic of the night:

Red Sun Rising
Bellatrix. PG-13. 1,077 words with a child abuse warning that you should heed.
The doll was extraordinary. It was soft and squishy and warm, and it reacted to everything Bella did.

Don't ask where this came from.



In other news, I seem to have bidden in Sweet Charity. Sweet Charity seems to be very well frequented within the Supernatural/CW RPS fandom - about 75% of my SPN/RPS flist takes part in it. Now on the other side, hardly anyone from the Harry Potter fandom participates. Why's that, I ask you? No time? Didn't know?

I'm curious.

I have updated the list of Harry Potter-centric asylums on InsaneJournal.

Finding new things to add is like pulling teeth by now. So! Tell me about whatever asylums I have missed, okay?

InsaneJournal	LiveJournal	other	theme	posting	sign-up
hp_springsmut	hp_springsmut		rarepairs, adult-rated	March	December
hp_summersmut	hp_summersmut		adult-rated		April
	hp_wintersmut		adult-rated	December
hpdesmutathon	hpdesmutathon		Death Eaters, adult-rated	April	March
	hpslashnotsmut		slash pairings, up to PG-13
hpvalensmut	hpvalensmut		slash pairings, adult-rated	February	November
	luna_exchange		Luna-centric	March
smutty_claus	smutty_claus	smutty_claus @ JF	het pairings, adult-rated	December	August
snapelyholidays			Severus-centric	December	August
snarry_holidays			Harry/Severus	November
snarry_swap			Harry/Severus
	sshg_exchange		Hermione/Severus	December	August
	weasley_fest		Weasleys
wizard_love	wizard_love		het pairings, adult-rated	February	November

My wizard_love gift has been posted, and it's a super-hot piece of art by a mystery artist indeed *g*

Wicked Game (Severus/Tonks, NC-17). I simply adore the setting and the kind of story it tells. *flails*

Incidentally this is my second year of participation in w_l and my second year I received art. Not that I mind, heh!

We are currently celebrating 500+ members at 100quills! Yay! So, if you're part of the community, are watching/a member with a claim or without, head on over to LJ to answer our poll!

sivullinen and I are planning further celebrations for this weekend, so stay tuned :)

... because it kind of annoys me that all the comms asylums here are so very scattered. Feel free to comment with any other communities asylums that I might have forgotten/are new/whatever :)

( Character-/family-/group-centric )

( Pairing-centric - het )

( Pairing-centric - slash )

( Pairing-centric - other/mixed )

( Gen )

( Drabble asylums )

( Fests )

( Exchanges )

( Newsletters )

RL is happening - my uncle's in hospital because the meds for his schizophrenia aren't working, and well. He's got kids and my aunt has work, so I'll have to help them out when I can. Hopefully my uncle will be back home for the "actual" Christmas time...

Aside from that - as everyone else has already said: Don't expect anything around here in December except for recs. God I'm so freaking excited! And, naturally, later in the months, the Christmas fics I offered. Make sure to watch envinyatar_fics for them, yeah?

Happy holiday season! :D

When I'm looking at a 7yo boy dressed up as a female clown in a circus show and thinking "o.o shiny, kinky stuff," there must be something wrong with me.

( some sex-related anecdotes from RL )

Also, I've been reading amazing fic in three fandoms (HP, SPN, dS) in my attempt to get my schedule cleared for December (OMG only six days!!!). And SPN RPS is made of luuuurve. Ack. Watch me become poly-fannish *sigh*

Which reminds me: the next SPN ep will air on December 13, y/y? And the one after that, 3.09, on my birthday, January 3??? God. That sucks. (Except for the birthday thing. That certainly doesn't! But, y'know, it only being 2 eps in a month and a half.)

I actually thought I'd attend Accio 2008, but I just saw the rumours confirmed: IT'S EXPENSIVE. I don't have 300 pounds (=430€!) just for registration and lodgings. I mean, I have flights to pay for, and food and alcoholic beverages. And I don't think I only want to stay for the duration of the conference - after all I'm flying in from Germany, and I'd like to get to know the surroundings a little. I want it to be a holiday.

I'd poll, but I still don't have a paid account (shame on me!). So tell me: what are you, who are thinking about attending, going to do? I'm thinking maybe I'll just get a room and party with you lot :D Though shiny_crystal said she perhaps won't go, which means I'd have to find a roommate as well.

Thoughts?