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Looks like I'm sick again (cold this time), so I'm doing this meme everyone's doing at the moment. I think it's actually as accurate as can be.


My Personality

Neuroticism	81
Extraversion	1
Openness to Experience	83
Agreeableness	50
Conscientiousness	10

You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

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... because I'm still at work even though all the kids are gone, am feeling dizzy and ache-y and generally bad all over and am waiting for a parent that might or might not show up to talk with her about her exceedingly difficult son.

( Lookie how accurate those are (so far) )

It's interesting how much het I've written this year. Erm. Weirdness? *g*

Favorite story this year: Quiet (Hermione/Remus). It's my baby and I only let it go into the scary wide world half an hour ago (WAH!).
Best story this year: My snupin_santa, which still has its faults, but for the most part it says exactly what I want it to say. Also Shadows in Light and Dark (Narcissa-centric gen). It's not brilliant, but it is my personal canon and I worked really hard on it. In the end, I was very pleased by the result.
Most underappreciated by the universe: Heart Stops Beating (Narcissa/Severus). Once my beta told me it wasn't crap, I came to love this story very, very much.
Most fun story: Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night (Sirius-centric gen). I love twisting Sirius around!
Sexiest story: Hmm, that's a hard one because I haven't concentrated on this aspect. I think it's Quiet.
"Holy crap, that's wrong even for you": Actually this is not applicable because OMG WHERE ARE THE BAD NON-CON STORIES OF 2007??? but I'll humour you. Red Destruction (Ginny/Ron), because it has non-con incest. It's nothing fancy, but I couldn't see myself writing incest before, so there you go.
Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: My smutty_claus story, most definitely. And Quiet, because it finally let me find my Remus.
Hardest story to write: My snupin_santa aside, it was definitely Shadows in Light and Dark (Narcissa-centric gen). Writing Narcissa's relationships to all those different characters was difficult, to say the least. Emotionally it was There Is Always Consolation (Remus-centric with some Snupin, about Sirius' death). That's my heart right there.
Biggest disappointment: In Your Reach (Bill/Severus), because it never quite came together the way I wanted it to.
Biggest surprise: Downward Spiral. I didn't think it was all that good, but the response to it has been amazing.
Story I want remembered: Quiet, because as I said above it's my baby.


ETA: Writing New Year's Resolutions!

- write all the freaking damn fic ideas in your three (!) writing notebooks and the half-finished drafts in your Google Docs! (esp.: Severus/Sirius fic that might span from Marauders era up to DH with canon-compliance; Hermione/Severus with twisted motivations; Charlie/Remus/Tonks fic that already has a sequel.)
- write all the goddamn meta in your head
- explore more kink (esp. of the wrong variety; too many stories of that kind are already in your notebook)
- indulge in new Supernatural obsession...
- ... and do not forget Harry Potter over it
- write more slash and gen, because Teh Het seems to be taking over your world
- control run-on sentences
- try to write plot
- work on dialogue

I think that sounds like enough to work on. Anything that you want to focus on, dear flist?

Meme time!

10 Signs You Are Reading A Story By Envinyatar

1. There is little to no direct dialogue. Sometimes it's indirect. (Fail, I know.)

2. Instead, there is silence and meaningful glances and instinctively knowing what the other wants.

3. There is little in the form of detailed visual descriptions, be it characters or surroundings.

4. Instead, there is a lot of thinking. Angsting. Emotional conflicts. Intense focus on the chatacter telling the story with little room for anyone else.

5. There is a lot of present tense. Sometimes second person POV. If there is past tense, there will be voice over or a "framing" beginning and ending in present tense. And there will be run-on sentences.

6. There is a strict POV. No switching even in different scenes within a fic.

7. Sex usually isn't all that important. It's either found after some of the emotional conflict is solved or used to express said emotional conflict. It is rarely very kinky or very graphic.

8. If we are talking first war generation, there will be Severus and/or Sirius and/or Remus and/or, lately, Narcissa. Sometimes Lily or James.

9. If we are talking second war generation, there will be Hermione and/or Harry. Sometimes Draco or Theodore.

10. Canon pairings are used to bounce off new pairings, be it in the form of grief because of the beloved one's death, or unhappiness within the relationship and resulting cheating.

11. A set of (living) secondary characters does usually appear off-screen, if at all.

(Okay, so I said there'd be ten signs, but these are more like, a bazillion. Heh. And there are still things missing...)