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A numbered list.

1. LONDON!!! The snupin_meeting! Lots of awesome people! July 21-27. Emails have gone out regarding this. If you were waiting for one.

2. SLEEP! I've spent like, a gazillion hours sleeping. And it's done wonders for my lack of optimism and enthusiasm. YAY PEOPLE! YAY GETTING UP! YAY DOING THINGS! When did I last feel like this, I ask you?

3. PAIN! My wrist hurts like a bitch. I guess writing roughly 24K in two weeks kind of overstressed it. Which doesn't mean I'm gonna stop writing, because...

4. DEADLINES! Lookit! *tears hair out*

5. FINANCES! They're all clear now for London, finally, OMFG. Caused much anxiety on this side.

6. PEOPLE! I LOVE PEOPLE! IF I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU SO IN RECENT TIME, I'M TELLING YOU NOW! ♥

7. TALK! There's been much sex talk going on at work, which, fun. Also, one of my colleagues has been talking to me about her committing adultery, and her affairs, and stuff. Which, weird, but also, inspiration. Heh.

8. lupin_snape's Fantasy Fest!!! CLAIMING IS NOW UNDERWAY. God, I fail for almost missing this important tidbit of information.

This post is brought to you by the letters S, H and M. I will now return you to your scheduled gloom seriousness.

Apparently I'm having an identity crisis?

My dreams last night included this gem:


I was in London, at Curzon Hostel at Curzon Court Road, and I went to university somewhere thereabouts - being an exchange student from Germany. I was also a gay man who had unprotected sex without lube (man, that burned!), with Draco. I think he was angry with me and therefore decided to stake his claim on me or something. I'm not sure if maybe I was Harry - and dreaming of Harry/Draco, which is one of the few pairings I absolutely under no circumstance read, um, okay? - but anyway, this unprotected sex without lube made me late for university.

All the way through lectures I kept squirming because I could still feel Draco inside of me, and everyone threw me glances like they absolutely knew what had happened.


o_O OKAY. Seriously body, WTF? *rolls eyes at self*

This is to say, I'm feeling better. Apparently good fandom things + trying to set up a sleeping pattern + looking forward to the Snupin Meeting instead of looking backwards at the past are doing wonders. Also, writing = YAY!


ETA: There are two guys sitting beside me, surfing the internet (I luckily thought to bring my laptop with me), and they're looking at pictures. It seems they're rating the females after their appearance???

OMG. I want to attend Asylum con in Birmingham/UK. JARED WILL BE THERE. Seriously, can I be any more of a fangirl? *sigh* And that when I prided myself in never having had a serious celebrity crush. Damn it all. JARED, WHY ARE YOU SO MADE OF AWESOME?

Also, I apparently have sex dreams now. Two in twelve hours. I usually never have really really explicit ones in which I am taking part myself. WTF, subconscious. I already know what you're trying to tell me.

And this game cracks me up like whoa.

*needs to stay awake so she won't be assaulted by more sex dreams*

When I'm looking at a 7yo boy dressed up as a female clown in a circus show and thinking "o.o shiny, kinky stuff," there must be something wrong with me.

( some sex-related anecdotes from RL )

Also, I've been reading amazing fic in three fandoms (HP, SPN, dS) in my attempt to get my schedule cleared for December (OMG only six days!!!). And SPN RPS is made of luuuurve. Ack. Watch me become poly-fannish *sigh*

Which reminds me: the next SPN ep will air on December 13, y/y? And the one after that, 3.09, on my birthday, January 3??? God. That sucks. (Except for the birthday thing. That certainly doesn't! But, y'know, it only being 2 eps in a month and a half.)