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Eh. My answer to the Supernatural season finale, which I watched yesterday afternoon:

Drinking half a bottle of white wine at 5PM and another two thirds of a Martini Bianco bottle from 8:30PM onwards. I wasn't raging drunk - Martini rarely has a lot of effect on me - but I was... intoxicated. By the time midnight rolled around, I was definitely a little unsteady on my feet... Poor zebraspots05, she got confronted with me in my sad state. But I don't think I scared her. Did I? *is unsure*

Anyway. It seems I'm now really getting into this Writing Supernatural thing. I'm supposed to be working on one deadline fic (which, um, is SPN, too) and on two fics I recently got back from beta'ing. Instead I'm writing a coda for the season finale.

Muse, please to be shutting up now, 'k?

*headdesk*

( I need a drink. )

I haven't had a good start into May, I'll have to say, but I can't and won't whine any more - it doesn't make the thoughts go away. Better to think of other things. I'm just going to have to deal.

SO! Positive things! I'm a-glee about:

a) my long weekend (how many times until you're sick of hearing it?) - of which I'll spend Saturday on a tournament, AGAIN. This weekend's wake-up time: 5AM. Whee >.<
b) my friends - in RL and online ♥
c) hp_wankfest starting. I have anon fic in it!
d) Supernatural tonight
e) a couple emails from today

*crosses fingers for tomorrow, WHICH I'LL SPEND AT HOME. Possibly in bed.*

- SUPERNATURAL IS BACK. I will not bore you with my opinion of last night's episode, 3.13, but let me say: BOOOOYS, I <3 YOU. SO MUCH.

- the cold is still in full force, but as long as I'm doped up I feel good. Is that good or no good?

- I has seekrit projekt. shiny_crystal has promised to help. Poor thing, I hope she knows what she's getting herself into! Someone else has also been bothered with my Wanting to Know Things. Information should be up sometime... next week, I hope? Because I have a long weekend next week. YAY FOR NO WORK.

- I'm going to have to be up at 4AM tomorrow. Yes, you read that right. I'm helping a friend out - she's riding a tournament tomorrow, and I'm her TT ("Tournament Idiot" :P). LMAO.

- I am amused by the fact that a third of the HP people I stumble across are also at least halfway into the Supernatural or its RPS fandom.

- FESTS: I am glad it's only the snarry_games I'm following at the moment. Because I'm way behind there already! And May is going to be way more busy, fest-wise! So much reading to do again, OMG! *wibbles*

In conclusion: YAY SUPERNATURAL! BOO COLD!



ETA: - my work contract actually only goes until June, but I asked whether they'd like to keep me longer - looks like I'm going to be there until September! W00t!

( WTF brain, WTF. Dreamin' about Jensen Ackles!? )

I wish my brain would focus on reality for once. I'm not complaining about the dream, but, y'know, some RL action wouldn't come amiss...

ALSO, the DVD of the third season of due South just arrived at my flat. HAPPINESS. HEAVEN. *goes to watch*

When I'm looking at a 7yo boy dressed up as a female clown in a circus show and thinking "o.o shiny, kinky stuff," there must be something wrong with me.

( some sex-related anecdotes from RL )

Also, I've been reading amazing fic in three fandoms (HP, SPN, dS) in my attempt to get my schedule cleared for December (OMG only six days!!!). And SPN RPS is made of luuuurve. Ack. Watch me become poly-fannish *sigh*

Which reminds me: the next SPN ep will air on December 13, y/y? And the one after that, 3.09, on my birthday, January 3??? God. That sucks. (Except for the birthday thing. That certainly doesn't! But, y'know, it only being 2 eps in a month and a half.)

Huh. I have 20,000 words of finished ficcage lying around. That's... um. Er. Kinda much, for me? But I'm finally halfway done with the exchanges. (Mind you, those 20k are not spent on a single fic.)

I've been reading a whole lot of Supernatural fic these past ten days since I've been lured into it, and I'm asking you: why are at least 99% (judging from what I've read so far) of the fic in that fandom - SPN and related RPS - written in present tense? Not that I mind in the least because that tense, IMO, adds a kind of quiet intensity and/or urgency and/or sarcasm and/or deadpan voice, all of which I seriously adore, but. It's seriously troubling me. HP fic is probably 75% past tense or some such, which, granted, is probably because the book series it's based on is written in past tense and the "common" tense in novel-writing seems to be past tense (I'd kill for more published novels in present tense and/or more experimental technique of storytelling, like, say, The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides, or When I Was Five I Killed Myself by Howard Buten). Anyway. All I'm saying it's a real difference there, not that I mind it.

I'm also contemplating which exchanges I'm going to actively follow in December. I've come up with:
- due South Secret Santa
- harry_holidays
- merry_smutmas
- smutty_claus
- snupin_santa
- spn_holidays

Occasionally devoured will be snarry_holidays. And I'm sure I'm forgetting a couple or so.

Does that strike anyone as too much? *sigh* I'll really have to clear my December schedule... And all what I want posted this year (apart from my fic offer, and you can still request a ficlet from me a few entries down) will have to be posted by November 30, because there's going to be enough reading (and viewing!) material in December. That leaves a less over three weeks to write write write edit edit edit and post post post. Uh-oh.

First off, as usual: fic pointers!

Contrasts. Narcissa/Severus, not-quite-background Lily/Severus, NC-17, 2,200 words. Severus wasn't what Lily wanted while Lily was everything Severus wanted, and Narcissa wasn't what Severus wanted but she was all he seemed to be allowed to have. This one was a bitch to write, why I don't know, but the fic had me so frustrated for days. Heh.

Also, there's a ficlet called Price over at envinyatar_fics. Trio gen, 700+ words. Drunk!wizards :D


In other words, I'm feeling kinda blech lately. My aunt was here visiting, which really always makes me withdraw. I don't think I've come out of my room for more than an hour each day all in all this weekend... I'm watching Supernatural and have seen it up to 1.13 now, and I'm reading Supernatural fic and due South fic. More isn't happening right now.

mini_nanowrimo is going well, I've met my word goal of 200 words every day (not that that's too difficult). Well, actually I've written much more than those 200, even though I'm not up to NaNo level yet.

sazzlette is making me watch Supernatural.

And that when I wanted to sleep...!!!

I GOT A NEW JOB!!!

I'll be working with an association that mainly has social projects and deals with psychologically ill people. And I'll have the job until next year, which is pretty awesome - especially since I'll have a lot of chances/possibilities there... I can practically choose what I'd like to do and do it. Might also be able to do hippotherapy...! *squee*

Heroes is Very Amazing as usual. The only thing that bugs me is that a lot of you can watch the new episode on Mondays. I only have it on Wednesdays :( Actually Heroes has begun airing on German TV last week, and I watched about a couple of minutes of it and decided it was awful. Funny how just the language can change the perception, no?

Supernatural has also begun airing here. That's one of the shows I'm not following already, and I don't see me doing so in the foreseeable future either. I don't know, the premise doesn't intrigue me that much. I'd probably try to get my hands on it if I weren't downloading due South at the moment, but this way...

Fandom-related: sexy_brilliance's masterlist is up. I'm so happy about this year's fest - it was SO relaxed! I never thought running an exchange could actually be that, though I'm still glad it's over, as it gives me time to finally write.